once in february

hmmm.. its the end of the month na pala. i say, i've been quite busy lately sa work, and sa maraming changes na nangyayari saken. Most importantly, i think, i'm getting quite logical sa maraming bagay. Logical and practical. Im trying to be positive na sa mga views ko about a lot of things. Working my ass to become a better mature individual.

Sobrang dami palang pwedeng mangyari sa loob lamang ng 4 months. Within 4 months, naging isip bata ako (sabi defense mechanism daw yun sa mga anxiety attacks), naging paranoid (half-crazy), unsettled, crackpot, suicidal chicken at kung anu-ano pang kagaguhan. Ewan ko lang kung okay nako. Pero, i can say na i'm better than before.

Just last week, nagsimula na naman akong magkasakit. Colds + cough + a sore throat. Sabi ng doctor siguro sa stress daw. Binigyan nya ko ng medication, pero hanggang ngayon meron pa kong cough and colds (as i was writing this blog eh tulo sipon pako.. *singhooot*). I feel sleepy already pero may work pako kaya eto nag blog muna ako since, na-realized ko rin na matagal na rin pala akong walang bagong entry.

To a friend of mine na nasa san francisco ngayon, miss na kita tsong. Wala akong makasama dito para manuod sa Mayrics ng mga gigs. hehehe... tumugtog nga pala ulet yung spelling contest sa may bandang shaw blvd. at na special mention ka, sana napakinggan mo. Win, ingat ka dyan pare.. baka magka-*toot* ka dyan hehehe... kaw pa! kilala kita! Two Towers pa rin! hehehe...

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i keep climbing
rocky walls of disbelief
i keep fighting
i keep losing my mind

tell me there's a logic out there.