Taking each post

close your eyes
oh gently
we'll take on each thoughts slowly
each mem'ries painful paths
we'll be closing each roads

Bury all these woes, oh angel of mine
i'm all here completely
with hands badly shaken
holding you dearly

we'll now take each step
each step closer to forgiveness
though its painful
we know we wont fall tonight

oh angel of mine
burn all the lights
hold on oh so tight
its gonna be a helluva night

stop your tears from falling
else we'll both end up drowning
we should take each stride tonight

shut off the windows
let no one see us grieving
too punishing mem'ries
life made us be

turn off that time
coz tonight its a wretch
in fears of old
unmistakably given

oh angel of mine
burn all the lights
hold on oh so tight
its gonna be a helluva night

It's too late to turn your age around.. sulk!

what's brewing?

Matter of fact I am sick today,it occured to me that this sickness of mine only occur between 4 pmtill9 pm, after these gruelling-nerve wrecking-bed tumbling witching hours (tingin ko talaga maynag cursed saken) i'm instantly (like a sudden flick of light on a bulb after 24 hours of brownout) redeemed. Dont ask me. Di ko rin alam kung ano nangyayari saken. Me thinks that I have a busted system or organ or whatever blood-clothing vein inside, and i wouldnt know it since i dont wanna go to a doctor, ugali ko, hayaan na lang, my body will get tired of whatever virus or fix whatever damaged it is inside me (mala-wolverine ako eh hehehe..). Malas talaga. I didnt get the chance to watched X-men 3. I been having a toxic week lately kaya di ako makaalis, even on sundays! yeah, talking about some life huh? but im emotionally, as i can tell, stable nowadays. I'm becoming... the term people used is mature, well, emotionally. Nah..., I dont wanna go into details as to how or why, else, this blog might turn into a blockbuster movie (starred by an actor who is under an illusion that he has talent in acting and who's only capable of posing a "supossedly" charming smile to people around him). I am just stable, steady with everything. I keep time pass me by, the hell I care, I'm steady.

I'm done with this korea-novela frenzy, It's all over the place! Even my friends are watching these dull teleseryes. And what about the local tv series? It SUCKS BIGTIME!!! captain barbell concept sucks! i say bring back the original concept. If you wanna create a teleserye for richard, have a mulawin remake instead! Yeah that's whats brewing!

Fuck! (Fin pala!)

you know you are lucky when some mornings the sunrise isn't the prettiest thing you see

kriing! kriing! kriing!

(telepono yan, nag riring)

me: yes?

caller: musta na?

me: ok lang, sino to?

caller: ako, di mo ba ko nabobosesan?

me: hinde, sino nga to?

caller: ako nga! hellow?

me: ahh.. oh baket?

caller: wala lang.. how are you?

me: i'm doing fine naman.. you?

caller: ganun pa rin, wala masyadong changes. ikaw? inconsistent ka pa rin?

me: constantly.

caller: hihihi... umaalis ka pa ba?

me: sometimes. pag may free time.

caller: alis tayo minsan.

me: sige na muna, natatae ako eh.

caller: why are you like that? pag tuwing kausap mo ko natatae ka na lang bigla? mukha ba kong cr?

me: may pagka

(caller hung up)

me: bastos amf!

(suddenly nag ring ulet)

me: yes?

caller: kaw ang bastos!

(hung up ulit)

me: huh?!?

*** this story didnt really happen. wala lang ako magawa and i feel the need to write something here, magtatapos na kase ang month wala pa kong post. hehehe.. dont worry mabait naman ako kausap sa fone.

it's all set

i'm tired of singing you love songs
it is such a drag of its becoming
i'm sick of giving sweet nothings
i'm scared of giving in
i'm in pulse of these sapidity
and it's all set
it took me decades to decide
i'm going now
in a pursuit of a dream
you can't follow
your hopes can't follow
you will lose me
i will lose you
and if ever God is watching
ask Him if i'm flying
cos im not
i will be down there throwing stones after stones
to build me a bridge to crossover
oh how i'm so unprepared

2000ml scar remover

-Kumpleto-

di ko alam kung pwede pa
kung pwede pa hintayin mo lang muna
hintayin mo lang muna bumalik ang sarili ko sa akin
at ipakikita sa iyo
kung sino at anu ako
kumpleto

kung makapaghihintay pa
sundan mo lang muna
wag lilingon
at wag kang mangangamba
di ka na mangangamba

hintayin mo lang muna
at sandali na lang ito
hintayin mo lang muna bumalik ang sarili ko
at ipakikita sa iyo
iaalay sa iyo
kung sino at anu ako
kumpleto

taglay ko ang ganda ng buwan
half moon man
di na mag iisa muli
at wag maiinip kahit alam nating mainit

hintayin mo lang muna
at sandali na lang ito
hintayin mo lang muna bumalik ang sarili ko
at ipakikita sa iyo
iaalay sa iyo
kung sino at anu ako
kumpleto

hintayin mo lang muna
at sandali na lang ito
hintayin mo lang muna bumalik ang sarili ko
at ipakikita sa iyo
iaalay sa iyo
kung sino at anu ako
kumpleto

hintayin mo ko at malapit na
samahan mo kong hintayin ako
sabay tayong maghihintay
sabay tayo
sabayan mo ko

hintayin mo lang muna
at sandali na lang ito
hintayin mo lang muna bumalik ang sarili ko
at ipakikita sa iyo
iaalay sa iyo
kung sino at anu ako
kumpleto


kumpleto
kumpleto, kumpleto,kumpleto
kung sino ako. kumpleto.

not even the best hairstyle can make an ugly mind pretty

parating busy kaya quotes lang muna:

-Was I right? Was I right to open all the old wounds again, to force myself to bleed again as in that cellar 12 years ago? Have I been a fool to bring her here when eight scores of months had almost cured the pain? (The Phantom Of Manhattan)

-We are never quits with those who oblige us, for when we do not owe them money, we owe them gratitude (count of montecristo)

... maligo na kayo!

***

you probably couldnt see me
so i automatically became a whisper
far from a legend
a story unworthy of writing
whatever your doing
dont do it for me
take a lesson on science
and mathematics
cos i'll be learning to count all wrongs
on your grand solar system

once in february

hmmm.. its the end of the month na pala. i say, i've been quite busy lately sa work, and sa maraming changes na nangyayari saken. Most importantly, i think, i'm getting quite logical sa maraming bagay. Logical and practical. Im trying to be positive na sa mga views ko about a lot of things. Working my ass to become a better mature individual.

Sobrang dami palang pwedeng mangyari sa loob lamang ng 4 months. Within 4 months, naging isip bata ako (sabi defense mechanism daw yun sa mga anxiety attacks), naging paranoid (half-crazy), unsettled, crackpot, suicidal chicken at kung anu-ano pang kagaguhan. Ewan ko lang kung okay nako. Pero, i can say na i'm better than before.

Just last week, nagsimula na naman akong magkasakit. Colds + cough + a sore throat. Sabi ng doctor siguro sa stress daw. Binigyan nya ko ng medication, pero hanggang ngayon meron pa kong cough and colds (as i was writing this blog eh tulo sipon pako.. *singhooot*). I feel sleepy already pero may work pako kaya eto nag blog muna ako since, na-realized ko rin na matagal na rin pala akong walang bagong entry.

To a friend of mine na nasa san francisco ngayon, miss na kita tsong. Wala akong makasama dito para manuod sa Mayrics ng mga gigs. hehehe... tumugtog nga pala ulet yung spelling contest sa may bandang shaw blvd. at na special mention ka, sana napakinggan mo. Win, ingat ka dyan pare.. baka magka-*toot* ka dyan hehehe... kaw pa! kilala kita! Two Towers pa rin! hehehe...

***

i keep climbing
rocky walls of disbelief
i keep fighting
i keep losing my mind

tell me there's a logic out there.

Unedited

I was on a business trip at Caramoan island for the past 2 weeks. Its refreshing na makapunta sa lugar na malayo sa araw araw mong nakikita. Pero, malungkot sa lugar na iyon. i considered it nga as my chateau d'if (kung alam nyo yung Count of Montecristo, you'll know what i'm talking about.) Maganda yung place, nature tripping talaga. ingat lang ako kase ang daming snakes sa lugar na napuntahan ko. Dun ko natikman yung wild boar, sarap pala nun.

I can say na "untouched" pa yung place kase sa morning pagka-gising, an eagle flying high above would greet your mornings tapos at night mga fireflies naman makikita mo sa isang tree. Dun ko nalaman na mahirap palang mamingwit ng isda tsaka kumuha ng clean water para mainum. But its all worthwhile.

After 2 weeks, na-miss ko na tong net, tsaka lahat ng ginagawa ko dito sa manila. Buti na lang at nakauwi nako.

***

..for you, kase higit sa lahat na-miss kita..

Immensely buried by my thoughts of you

I can’t help myself but to think of ways to make you happy

To make myself think of ways to make you smile every waking day

I succumb to every word you said

I could die believing in you

You alone made everything in my world appear all right

You alone made everything seem all right

If I could only make you beam with glee each day

If I could only wash away those woes

I would… if I could

Those eyes gleamed with passion of beauty

Shimmered with happiness

You don’t deserved anguish

You are more than what you think you are

This time no more walls, no more bunkers, no more misery

This time.., I’ll have eight arms to hold you.